Life has a funny way of working out the worst parts of us but keeping the best, and eventually we realize our flaws were not who we are but simply a vehicle to discover the power we truly possess in overcoming them. I never felt like I was good enough and defined myself through those flaws, and with perseverance, eventually brings evolution by growing beyond it and seeing how far it brought you years later. It all comes down to choosing to live or die. I began my journey in discovering myself with a burning desire to write, as I had dealt with a severe speech impediment for all of my life that had defined me for all of the pain that it brought with it. Therefore it began as The Stutterer, and it eventually evolved into what you see before you built from years of heartache and deep lessons about myself that strengthened my vision.
We Are Witnesses To Creation.
We are all the masters of our own kingdom that is guided by a predestined course by God above, we are merely witnesses to its unfolding and we can only take heart in the inner workings that are revealed to us. The choice of faith is letting go of the illusion of control so that we can watch those beautiful things unfold. We are all born of mighty and terrifying power that none can understand except when we pray and ask for the grace to have it revealed to us, as each and every one of us have something unique and beautiful to bring to this earth like a note in a grand orchestra. It harmonizes, comes together and plays a beautiful tune of life, we find joy and fulfillment in this when we can share it with the world and they with us, we find celebration in such things like a light that keeps burning even in the darkest night, and inspires those left in the dark to fight until the dawn. We cannot know what the next day will bring except that we have a chance every day to speak life into a world ready for us to take it on as a new generation who experiences life as our ancestors did. There is no rulebook except the laws God has given us, there is nothing holding us back from greatness except ourselves. It might take years to make our vision clear and it might seem impossible, but to persevere means adopting the belief in miracles and seeing wonders unfold.
Life Is Found In Purpose.
If not for our daily jobs and work what else is there to life except this: to strive for our own dreams and vision for this earth and make it so? It was never about the length of time we live but how fully we live, a man can live only half a life but if it is filled with love, happiness and contentment then that is a full life. Years fly by and hours pass like the wind or the rivers that flow, we cannot control it except to seize the gifts we’re given and chase after them in wholehearted faith. All of this became apparent to me because I decided to have the bravery to look inward and journey into my own character to understand who I am and what I could achieve and it’s how I’m writing this to you now. I didn’t start like this I wasn’t just a writer since I was born, I looked to all that I was in the good and the bad and tried my best to find the silver lining and continuing to have faith that even despite my pain, there is a reason for it in the grand scheme of my life. If you wake up in the morning and look at the birds and the plants and the sun, you’ll see that it all synchronizes and is not random, if so the earth would have been gone long ago and yet there is something beyond us that gives it order. We go through so much pain and struggle every day and yet somehow the worst never truly catches us as long as we hold onto even a shred of faith in something good. Some go through worse trials than others but I can assure you, those who pray and believe in the impossible will have what their heart desires and I have seen this in my own life. I have been through tremendous heartache and pain in my life and almost everyone I once called friend or my own blood has mocked me or abandoned me or betrayed me. I have lived with a severe speech impediment my whole life and have had every reason to give up on life, and yet I looked to those who came before me and the people who overcame themselves to become more and realized that if I do the same, I can inspire others to rise from their pain, and therefore came my purpose. If not for yourself do it for them, find joy in a goal greater than your own needs and see that if you build yourself up and stand as a symbol for others, they will find strength in it.
Surrender Is Strength.
For a time I called myself The Stutterer believing that is what made me special but it never was, it was the belief that I can become more that makes me special. Did God not say that if He has made man’s mouth, can He not make us more and heal us of our infirmities, to make us whole? It was only an opportunity of faith to stand firm and strengthen belief in the impossible, and a gift that will go with us for all our lives. That is when I realized that I was no longer the past that hurt me so much, and now it was only a shadow of a man who had transcended into a new life of joy and celebration, one who found purpose in standing tall for all to see and to show that there is hope in all circumstances. Miracles happen for those who despite all that was around them, they decided to believe in what they could not see and were rewarded for it. We might not see a way out now but by the nature of imagination and little faith, we can say to that mountain to move and it will move, and all things shall be possible for us who believe in God first. And that means surrendering control. We have only a small window into what the true plan is and the promise is that God has meant only good for us, not to harm us. Therefore we have to strive and live as if our prayers have already been received, and know that what is meant to happen for us will happen and nothing can stop victory from finding us. The point of life and our struggles is to find it within ourselves to deny what our eyes can see and knowing that faith can do the impossible, and when that day comes, truly it is wonderful.
A New Day Is Here.
I am telling you all of this because my life has changed despite every pain and torment imaginable, and I found salvation in believing that everything will be perfect in the end. Such faith is rewarded and by the very nature of God’s promises, all good things shall come to pass. I write this to tell you to believe in yourself. I’m left reminded of the person I once was when I started this in 2021 to attempt creative work, defined by his flaws and beginning a long journey that made me realize that my flaws were merely a vehicle of perfection through weakness. Grace is made perfect through our flaws and through battling them, becomes the reason we overcome and transcend into a new body and identity; and then, only then shall we be free. All of my pain and suffering were marked at this point because it confronted who I was, and realized I could be so much more. And only then did I truly find myself, through fire, steel and stone, prayer and steadfast strength even when I thought it was all over. Everyone around me eventually hurt me, mocked me, abandoned me, but I continued on trusting that God saw something I didn’t. And He was right. The time is now, 2026 is a new beginning, and we shall not fall, we will rise and we will celebrate a new dawn. It is through grace that our weakness perfects us into something beautiful. God is greater than what we seek, so walk by faith and not by sight, and you will inevitably succeed. Continue on your journey, and know that greater days are to come.
Thank you for reading.
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